……We suspected that the indian thieves actually wanted to steal our things to sell it to kilang besi buruk as our factory having plenty of stainless steal machineries. Well, the suddenly saw we fixed the cctv and their face got caught by camera. Thats why they burned everything to destroy my pc. Now, more than RM200k lost after that fire. What should we do? Insurance? no…..

Everyone asking me about insurance, but sadly,we didnt buy any insurance. Almost 85% made by wood. Which insurance company dare to sell us? Well, even if they sell, they selling in high price,how to affort? By the way,even if we buy, how much they able to pay us for such a big case? I dont think they let us claim anything! and i know, they will try to give us lots of excuses….to avoid from being claim… Dont believe? Ask those who got experienced before! yea, for some small cases they might let u claim, such as robbery or sickness. well… i never trust any insurance company… never. I rather keep my money in bank…it’s more worth.

No people sacrificed in this fire but… all those fishes and my cat…gone. thousand of lifes they killed. Hmm… Another things, after we report police, they just came to take photos and gone. I lost my cat…my cat!!!!.. and i lost 3 bottles of shuttles!!! and my brother lost his school uniform n shoes, and again I lost all my health articles, i lost almost 1k of my salary after 2 months i work in lab…i lost. mom screamed,her shirts all gone….and actually, everyone do lost:’(

Now, we still owing bank for the loan we took…we should pay them at least 5k per month,and those workers salary,petrol expenses,brother expenses,indon maid expenses,our bils,…all need about 10k above. Where to find?…

Daddy tried to go Jabatan Pertanian Klang last 2 days, but the clerk said orang berkuasa sudah out station. Well, today, dad phoned the Jabatan’s office …more than 10 times he called, for the whole day… they never picked up the phone. How come this thing happened? A government department unable to pick up phone calls for whole day? Oh my god… should we report? No, wate time n energy though.

Is that the way we work toward vision 2020 with this shameful and irresponsible attitude in 2006?

I’m tired, very tired. I mean, mentally exhausted.

And… only one thing i wish…

Wishing everything going to be fine…

We may eat poridge with salt… we may just unable to pay the loan and no more house to stay in. we may just lost everything… I still can on9 for few weeks i think, until the line is cut by tmnet.

So, friend…appreciate what u having now…. coz u wont know what will happen next.

TAKE CARE.

YING

-18 FEB,Saturday-

Daddy woke up 2am in the midnight as usual. Sprayed water on mushroom, and then arranged the mushroom in car and got ready to drive out for delivery in the market. While he was taking the mushroom in the refridgerator,he heard some motor sound. He quickly ran out n see, but just manage to saw 2 indians guy with a motor speeding out from our factory area. Dad started to worry as this is not the first time his factory got stepped in by thieves,indian thieves.

Before this, at least 5 times they came in as intruders. Near RM50k lost. and we did reported to police for once. But, poor, our government enforcement did nothing and yet asking us to catch the theif by ourself……..Last time,we whole family staying in, but since many times got disturbed,we not dare to stay in anymore. We stayed in the Taman nearby….and only dad who sleep there alone every night.

After daddy load all the mushrooms in his car, he have to send it to market. It’s late today,but no choice, he tried to petrol the factory area to see if he can suspect anything..but no people that time,is around 3.30am+…. He cant delay anymore, so he went to market.

This time, the malay people saw fire… they thought fireworks,but actually it was my dad’s factory which got burning…seriously. They screamed and afraid..and called the Bomba. Two bamba trucks arrived. The malay people drive to taman and shout…to notice us. When i first heard about it, i really wanna faint. I cant even walk… and i even forget how to cry. Mom shout at me and asked me to call daddy’s hp to confirm that daddy is not in the fire. I m afraid, if he is in the fire, how? and if he is not.. how am i going to tell him that his hometown n factory is burning? can he still drive on road after he heard that news? can he still accept what is happening… or just faint?…. finally i called. And when the time he heard the news from me, his only respone was " err.. must be the indians just now who done it"…He tak sempat to collect the money after delivery, once he heard about burning…he rushed back.

At first, the Bomba dont let us go in. Ya, i believe it’s dangerous. But, what is in my mind was…’nothing’. just blanked. Suddenly the malay asked me "hey, mane u punya huahua?(my cat)…" Oh shit… i screamed. i shouted.. she is gone…i cant find no matter how hard i tried. i even find her in the neighbour landlord…with mosquitoes bite,with slippery and big trees around…i shout togather with my brother, and i find at the malay housing area…at the end..i searched nothing. Where is my cat?..huahua… i miss u. come back please…:’(

Something surprise me, the Bomba man told dad " Mesin-mesin di sini kita kena rampas sebab ini kilang haram."…well, dad was angry..totally annoyed,surprised and just tidak masuk akal!…Dad told the man "kalau u nak ambil semua,ambil saje….tak pe. Asalkan u kena nayar ganti rugi masa depan. Sebab kita bayar cukai, ada ROC, ada lesen niaga,ada pengesahan jabatan pertanian,kalau apa apa jadi, u tanggung ok!"… then the Bomba man just left….  huh… even the government enforcement be greed like this, how we blame and ask the public to be good citizen?

……..totally….upset…

to be continue….

Hee.. About weeks ago, the policeman staying beside my laboratory got 2 baby rabbits from his kampung.

Very very nice but poor…he dont even know how to keep a rabbit..

Daddy saw it and he knew that my brother and I will sure going to scream when we get to see rabbits..

One with red eye,another black. both just nice and cute. But, the policeman keep them in a cage where’s not suitable for them to grow… but just near to my lab’s side gate. So whenever i open the door, two of them will jump in n out …haha…not because i m pretty lo…just bcoz i always give them food la…haihz………>.<

Now only i know..my daddy is also an expert in take caring rabbits…

he told me that he once rared hundred+ of rabbits for sale.. but finally he stopped this hobby because he thinking that it’s so pity to sell them. People used to kill rabbits and eat them…especially chinese oldies, saying that rabbit is one of the healthy food…lol…so cruel.

Daddy said, rabbits actually no need to drink water,except if we feed them dry proccessed foods. Hmm.. rabbits eat all in raw. Most of the people thinking that rabbits eat carrots only? No no…

They eat a lot.. they eat sugar cane,cabbage,whole grains,even jackfruit’s leaves… and they really dont drink any water. Hey, raw plants already contained water. Mama said, they never sweat, no need to run.. so no need water. wuahaha… brother said:"they didnt run but jumping here n there,isnt it more stressful and need water?!" haha…mama speechless lehh… and dad said :"they got lots of fur …." huh..anything related with water n fur? haha…

DAD also said that they have to stay in a cage where there is totally opened for air circulation. They dont like to stay in a ‘house’ where they have to step their own shit and eat in the same place…there fore, dont put any block or cloth or wood inside the cage…the shit have to straight away drop out from cage !… or else their legs will turn yellow instead of white…and in long term ,they will get sick,coz of bacterias,once it causes infection,rabbits will say die die and not byebye loh…

Daddy also told that when a rabbit is going to deliver…they will pulls down all their own fur and make a big big hole…and born their baby inside…wow…sound so interesting. Aiyah…forget to ask  papa, how to differentiate a male n a female rabbits? wuahahahahaha….

yO~!i miss those cute cute rabbits so much!.. already two days i didnt feed them. one day sick n one day off…donno that police uncle know how to take care or not le.. they are so cute…just..CUTE!!! wish to hold them in my hand but…they’re not mine..haihz..

Ehh… so late liao…tomorrow going out. BYebye…

Share with u all again next time.

thanks for reading n commens are welcome

12.36am Monday…

Last night, I got an sms from my friend in Uni. She told me that she will stop studying in 30th of this month. Well, I felt so fear to hear the reason she wanna stop her study. Felt confused.Once i nearly dropped my tears, Just… too concern about her. I called her up,but then she refused to pick up,told me that she was having class. Erpp…Finally she laughed,how stupid i am…does this month going to end in 30th? No… only 28th… arr…i got a big fool…! After that, I cant sleep,i tried to pretend as i m happy n tough.

I’m lying on bed and almost sleep. Mom came in n talked to me, i dont know why ..this time,i cant keep my feeling anymore n just cried out. Err… she went out. I still cant settle down…headache,not feeling well…

This time, I find him again. "hey,are u free now..can chat a while?"

He didnt reply me on time. And suddenly i felt wanna vomit,and i left my hp in room,i came out to have a walk. After a while,shiek teng called me,and we talked more than half hour…

After that i replied his sms. and we chat quite long until i closed my eye…and unable to reply his sms.

Today morning, I was shock i cant open my voice. Pain… and I feel so ‘ heavy ‘ on my head, fevering… But i still feel better than last night. At least i know what i should do about my futher study. I really know what to do now… thanks to my friend’s opinion / or should i say advices.

I didnt go for work today. Tired. Dizzy… Arr..i almost forget i dated with suat ling…for dinner! yo..~!

So bore,that’s why i send 3 different jokes to 4 of my friends… So far, only one had replied and i seems make him unhappy lo…coz i told him i m going to US on 30th ,this month….arr….Where got 30th in this month…:þ Sorry lo.. haiz…

I told another two of my friends that i ‘m going to marry in 30th of this month too.. well.. they haven reply me. and i cant imagine what they going to respone on me. Fun just now, but …now a bit regret of fooling them..how? >.<

I did asked him to accompany me to Genting in this 30th n 31st on this month… asking him whether he is working or not. hahaha… oh my god, why am i so ‘FREE" and wu liao…doing this kind of jokes..><

Funny? or Disgusting…? or just… wanna angrY me…? I m very cruel,right? haiz…

I’m boring today : (

that’s y…

and..actually, just wanna know how far u all care about me le.. sorrY >.< sorrY !!

Yingggzzzzzz,

4.39pm 11 feb 2006 saturday

Dont know why I act so weird these days. People around me act weird too. Everything just came weirdly..

I once had a habbit, i had to listen to radio on MyFm,almost 18hours per day. That’s around Form 3, a year which I need to sit for PMR 2001. I enjoyed the feeling when I listening to those love songs. Especially those sad and hurt one. Year after year, lots of friends appear and they cheer up my life. Soon, i forgotten about those sad songs. But, I dont know why,these few days i started to stick on da radio…and I bcome so concentrate on MyFm rather than my work in hand. What’s happening on me..? Lots of nice new songs playing in my mind now @.@!

I know what’s my main problem actually. Maybe tension,stress… about my work, about result,about further studies,about future,about family,about friends… of course,about money too. I tend to make my self look tough,but actually i’m not that tough. I tend to be calm,but i m not. Well, finally…i chose to sleep with the radio turned on, and work less. Escaping from the realities i guess,i am.

ALso, in these few days, people who never sms me(only me who sms them normally)suddenly appeared in my hp. Hmm.. maybe their soul know that i need someone to talk to. Haa.. it makes my inbox fulled,and dont know which should i delete first…ayo…

THen, some conflict happened in my family…again between my grandma n father,between dad and mom too. Why… ? eRr…just bothering my mind!

Besides, I once really crazy to put myself into an art college. But finally i failed bcoz of my financial problem. Err.. so i slowly,almost forgot about it. I remember that I already hide it deep inside my heart, but dont know why it suddenly jumped out last night, and make me register an art-related course in local Uni..u know!? i did that around 3.30am …hee…am i from UFO…?aa….maybe.

Another thing…

I already seldom on9 until midnight and neglect my health, but now seems.. i starting to do it again. Arggh!!…anyone can help me? i think i m getting crazy!… i can breath …really cant breathe when the time i m working, or even sleep. Side effect of facing too long infront the pc?…maybE…

I hope i can sleep… whole day. Coz i miss the dream,where i got to eat lollipop with …my friend. hehe…